An Identity Crisis!

Whoosh… that is how the time went the last 3 years. Sep 18th, 2008 – the day the Lehman Brothers collapsed and the sub prime crisis erupted – I started my entrepreneurial journey.

3 years down the lane – I still feel young and wide eyed. And this brings us to an identity crisis I am having. How do I introduce myself to strangers? Earlier it was easy – I work for an IT company and the other party just imagines me walking in with a laptop bag, boarding a flight to US of A and bringing back lot of foreign chocolates – and of course living the high life and someone who can afford the high rents and bribes. [ honestly this is not true, and I am always frustrated when the non-ITians think that we are having an easy life ]

Now I honestly do not know how to introduce myself.  Here are the few attempts :

I run a startup. The problem is – it is now my 4th year. How long will i keep starting should I not have started up by now? Also it feels as if I am toying with an idea or a business model – and the other party might not take me seriously. Anyone else other than the entrepreneurial community will not even understand the term “startup” correctly. So I stopped using this.

I run a business. This I tell with the least confidence. Because to me a business man is one who wears a suit / dhoti ( I was b&bup from Coimbatore ) , chews paan, has a waddle of cash, is chauffeured around in a car, tips heavily,speaks loudly to everyone, and is on phone all the time. I am none of them – and I do not sound confident because something inside me is trying to shut my mouth when I use this introduction.

I am an entrepreneur. It took ages for me to get the spelling right. And I attended a french class for 2 weeks – not that it helped but at least I can tell it is a french word. Aside anything that sounds french is cool ( expose, creme-da-la-creme, fiancee ). I love this introduction – however the majority cannot identify this word.

I have my company. Lame.. Doesnt excite me one bit – how will the other party even talk to me after such a dead introduction.

Hopefully by next year I should have a good introduction. Till then I will shake hands and tell the first thing that comes to my mind and keep trying various options.

Android Adventures – How I brick’d my phone

There is one more advantage to Running. It helped me skip a Puja shopping session – citing pain because of my run the previous day – and had a nice 6 hour window for myself.

I have been using Samsung Galaxy S for the last 1 year. It is a fantastic phone and has helped me in my running, exploring unknown places, keeping an eye on the server without booting up a laptop every time.

The PoS called Kies allowed me to upgrade to Froyo ( 2.2 ) from Eclairs ( 2.1 ). However it does not upgrade to Gingerbread (2.3) for whatever reason. While the rest of the Android world is enjoying Gingerbread I am stuck on Froyo. It was a long time dream to understand what this Android ecosystem is all about – and finally I found the time to sit and read about it and perhaps install Gingerbread.

Here are the steps to brick a phone.

1. Root the phone. This is the easy part. It does not brick it – totally harmless.

2. Get ADB. There is a defect in my phone. The hardware way of reaching recovery screen ( Volume Up + Home button + Power button ) does not work. A few SGS phones have this problem. The workaround is to install Android SDK. This gives you Android Debug Bridge ( ADB ) which can reboot your phone into recovery or download mode by running a command from the console ( adb reboot recovery or adb reboot download )

3. ClockworkMod. What an Idea Sirji! – Free download from App Market. It can install any ROM / firmware. You do not need ODIN ( coming up in a minute ) – just install this app, copy the ROM to your SD Card, reboot and install it. Also helps you to do a backup of your existing ROM – so you can revert back to a working copy.

4. Stock 3e. This is the recovery console that Froyo has put – and it is incompatible with ClockworkMod. When you install it will say Unable to verify signature. Lots of googling ( how did people ever live before Google? ) and I had to downgrade it to 2e.

5. ODIN. In order to downgrade to Stock 2e I had to flash a different Kernel. This video has good instructions : http://www.dkszone.net/install-android-2.3-gingerbread-samsung-galaxy-s-i9000-custom-rom-ultibread. Using ODIN is not that hard – and I feel this is the best way to flash ROMs or Kernels.

6. Confidence increases. Still my phone was working after every reboot. For a geek where things keep working one after the other – the confidence builds up. I typically watch for these signs as law of average will kick in soon and something bad will happen.

7. Installing Gingerbread. I was as excited as a child. I downloaded Gingerbread, copied it to sdcard, rebooted into recovery mode ( 2e now ), and started the installation process…and was enjoying reading the messages scrolling.

Removing the crap you installed before….
InStaLin, Hold OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONNNN!!
Unmounting mount points…
Your phone is now High, ReBo0t .

8. The Brick. The phone didnt ReBo0t after the installation and it went to the 3e console. I should have panicked here but I was ignorant. I happily rebooted the phone and thankfully the SGS splash screen came. But then the screen started going crazy. The phone started making androidish noises. Waited for a while with my BP rising. Powered the phone again and the screen was stuck at the SGS splash screen. 
9. The hardware defect surfaces. The 3 button trick to reboot to recovery console does not work. The phone has to first get picked up by the Laptop so I can run adb reboot recovery. Adb kept saying device not found. After lots of trial and error ( plug the usb cable and power up the phone, plug cable before splash screen comes up, plug cable after splash screen ) some combination worked and was able to reboot the phone. But the recovery mode never came and the phone kept hanging. Here I switched on the fan as I was sweating. 
10. ODIN saves the day. I had left ODIN ON and while I was trying to get adb to recognize the phone – so I can run reboot command – while switching windows I happened to notice that the phone was showing in one of the COM ports of ODIN. This gave me some hope. I downloaded the same Froyo version I had at the beginning of this adventure – it is a 190MB download – while reading more of the How Tos to unbrick a phone. Did a adb reboot download mode – the Android icon with the spade icon showed up, loaded it on ODIN, installed it, phone rebooted and the regular Samsung Galaxy S 1900 showed up and the second animated Samsung Galaxy S icon came up. No I didnt thank God but I thanked the entire Android community for bringing back the phone.
I was too exhausted at the end of this. Now I have the phone in the exact state I started it – ( lost the apps etc. – which is not a big deal anyway ). Since I have everything tied to Google – got all the contacts back. 
You might wonder – why did I download a Froyo ROM and not the Gingerbread ROM – since anyway I was going to flash. Remember the thing I said above about law of averages? I wasn’t prepared to take any more chances. I just wanted my phone in a working condition – I was even prepared to go back to the slow Eclairs with the infamous Lag. 
Quite an adventure! 

I Support Anna Hazare.

There you go – let me come out in the open.

While I might doubt the success of the JanLokpal bill – which no politician in the right mind will ever pass it – I love the revolution Anna Hazare and team is creating.

Dear Egypt, Syria, Lebonon – watch what is happening here. We are a healthy democracy and we are not fighting dictators. In another 50 years you will be going through what we are going through. You might be getting a honest leader now – but slowly without you even knowing – like the proverbial frog on a hot stove – your country will start getting looted. You will get so used to corruption tax that you will not even know that this is a crime you are committing. Then look back at history and see 2011 – what happened in India. You can get some inspiration out of this.

Back to my beloved country people – Go ahead – ask me – have you bribed?

Yes. I have. I am guilty but I am not ashamed. Before you call me a hypocrite read further.

Karnataka – the most corrupt state in India – is the only state in India to have Lokyukta. Santosh Hegde and his brave team keeps unearthing stash of illegally got wealth from officials from every department. We see in newspapers the photos and the grand total – that run into crores. What happens next? The officials get suspended for a few weeks or months – and they are back to their jobs – milking the system.

All we are asking is a Lokyukta with powers to prosecute.

These are the benefits :

1. Of course the whole corruption industry will go into recession.

2. The “tout-layer” will go out of business. There are honest officials and the buyer ( we ) are not aware of them – however the touts charge a fee saying it is for bribe and pocket the money. All these lazy goons will stop loitering around the government buildings and we go meet with these honest officials directly.

3. The rich country that India has become – will see less poverty. The largesses dished out ( no not the TVs and Fridges from TN govt ) – the subsidized rice from ration shops, the compensation from calamities ( gosh how can they even think of stealing from this )  – will all reach the people to the last paise.

4. People will donate to the PM’s relief fund.

5. Probably the goons will start concentrating on other ways to make money and will quit politics – so educated youth like you and me can start thinking of Politics as a career option.

Provided I have the confidence in me – that I will not be beaten up by goons for raising an RTI, or my house transfer is frozen for ever – because I refused to pay a bribe – I will not pay a bribe. I will use that money to go buy something tangible – that will provide more jobs and make everyone richer.

So my friend – you support Anna Hazare or not – let us work towards revolutionizing India.

I am following Anna Hazare’s path – you find a better path take it. Probably I will join you as well – and let us let India rise to its true potential.

Why any product needs “Mac Users”

First the Disclaimer : This is not a mac fanboy post. I am loosely stereotyping the 3 kinds of users based on the 3 OSes – Mac, Windows and Linux. This is mainly to drive home the point of how an “ideal user” will help your product become better and better. The “Mac User”, who I call – can also be a Windows, Linux,BeOs,OS 390…. user.  OS X has been successful mainly because of their Users – look at the amount of podcasts, fan sites, hints sites, magazines for this platform alone. Apple listens to these feedbacks – and incorporates some into every release of their OS.

I am tending to call these “ideal users” as “Mac Users”. Had linux/windows had the same level of success – will be labeling them likewise. Shall we move on? 🙂

Here are some reasons why you need Mac users.

1. They demand Perfection

This is from my personal experience. Some of the CxO users, ex-Entrepreneurs who use our product – just cannot stand mediocrity or minor bugs. As developers we gloss over things and we fail to cross the ‘t’s and dot the ‘i’s. But this irritates the hell out of these high achievers. When I look things through their eyes – it does make sense. Any aberrations – big or small – breaks the flow and harmony.

Switch to Linux Desktop. The flow gets broken everywhere. The applications are not consistent – each one I have to remember where I should go to do a certain thing. There are KDE apps, and Gnome Apps – and some apps who do not follow any school of UI philosophy. It kills me.  Linux as a Desktop has a very long way to go.

Windows 7 has come a long way from the Windows ME days. Still there are certain things that does not make sense – like exporting an Excel file as a CSV file – you have to put up with 3 dialog boxes – twice. This is sheer madness.

2. They improve your Product

The best part of working with the “Mac users” is they give great ideas. We built the initial product based on our knowledge / creativity. After that the product has grown from these inputs given by our users. They bring lot of expertise and cross-functional knowledge to the table. The earlier you identify them it is better for the product. Any prototypes you are building, or just want to bounce an idea about a feature – these are the users you should call first. They have a big picture view of your product – on functionality / usability / and even marketability.

Then there are the linux and windows users. Linux users will be bent on functionality without any respect to the marketability of the feature. Stay away. The Windows users might want a feature that is there in an X ( eg. in Tally or SAP ). They will not understand that building it will flush the usability down the drain – or how it does not fit with the overall design philosophy. Give them a hearing, explain why you might not incorporate – leave it at that.

3. The Best Part – They pay you


These demanding users also pay you – ungrudgingly. They do not haggle with you, they respect your business model, they do not ask you to sell Pizza online and give the product free, they do not ask you to do what X is doing and follow their model and hence give the product free. They respect what you have built – and pay because they see value. If they are not paying – then there is no value in the product. Loud and Clear.

Now going back to the 3 OSes – OS X, Linux and Windows – see the kind of users / followers each group has. Apple is lucky to have the kind of crowd following them ( Power users, artists, designers… ). All apple has to do now onwards is to listen – the best ideas come from their users – not from 1, Infinite Loop anymore.

So – have you identified your Mac Users?

What I talk about when I talk about Running

This is the book written by Haruki Murakami (thanks to @kgthegreat for pointing my spelling flaw) Nila mentioned to me about this book on Thursday evening, Friday morning I had to plan for a surprise one day trip to Chennai, Saturday found an audio version of this book and Sunday listened to this book on the afternoon return journey. At times it is really amazing how it looks like as if someone sat and planned the whole situation to the very last detail.

I have read only one book of his before – kafka on the shore. He is an amazing fiction writer and paints such crazy images and situations. ( http://kvrlogs.blogspot.com/2008/07/kafka-on-shore.html ). I was very curious to know what he had to talk about when he talks about running!

Pic from one of his interviews ( http://www.runnersworld.com/article/0,7120,s6-243-410–8908-0,00.html)

The book starts with him training in Kauai, Hawaii 6 days a week, 10kms a day with 1 rest day. He is putting in these miles in preparation for the New York Marathon. The story weaves in and out of of how he started running ( at the age of 33 around the same age I started running and this is where our similarity ends – I am yet to touch even 10kms, yet to write my first novel and I can’t speak Japanese – neither can he speak Tamil ).

I will list down some interesting facts I still remember.

* He does not walk when he runs in the marathon. He will take a break to stretch his legs – but he never walks as a policy. I am still in the run-walk-run routine, will try to emulate this.

* He has run the ultra marathon – 100 Kms in a day. This very thought is crazy. While a marathon with 42 kms is itself a crazy number – I just could not digest this number. He gives a vivid account on what went through his mind and body on that day when he ran this. How his body resisted and finally something inside him gave away and he could run with no pain. He reaches a meditative state. It is so beautiful to just listen to this part – imagine if you could experience it.

* He talks about how running helps his writing. Makes absolute sense – It is all about Focus, Endurance and Rhythm. This passage is brilliant how he relates his writing to running.

* Our man ran the real “Marathon” – between Athens and the small town of Marathon.

* He has run 1 marathon every year for the past 24 years.

* Best quote from the book “Pain is inevitable but suffering is optional”.

This book is like an adrenaline shot to beginner runners like me.

I give Newspaper the boot.

Finally – after years of reading Newspaper with a cup of filter coffee in the morning – I am breaking free from the thing called Newspaper.

The disillusionment started with Indian Express becoming more of yet another run of the mill Masala Newspaper. When the world was burning with Wikileaks – IE choose to look the other way.

“Tata Sumo turns turtle on NH-4”
“Mugging on ORR, techie loses mobile,laptop”
“Old Couple Murdered in Jayanagar”

I started feeling that it is a random generator which picks these news. Of course there were these moments of brilliance – when the editorial will go hammer and tongs against the establishment. But it was becoming less and less.

Then Nadia Tapes leak happened. With it Vir Singhvi – whose columns I used to love – was chucked out. Swapan DasGupta left IE long back to write for ToI. Gurumurthy and TJS George’s columns were coming very sporadically..they were getting old. IE could never find anyone to sit at their desks.

Finally I gave up – and switched to ToI for 2 months.

“Should item numbers be done by popular actress” – center page editorial debate.
“Strawberries good for health” – with an accompanying photo revealing all other details.
“Property News” – actually Ads – you can’t guess which is which anyway

And always the opening page – being sold to companies with deep pockets. It is like a coupon book the whole newspaper. There was no sincere intelligent editorial. Swapan Dasgupta’s editorials didn’t have the punch it used to have -felt very much tamed. The leaks, scams, Anna Hazare – all had a passing reference – something that should have been the front page news.

Finally with my disillusionment complete – I gave up.

Now I have filter coffee with a book in hand. It is so much peaceful.

And for the world and scams – I get them on my twitter & facebook feeds – can make my own judgments – I am grown up now.

Have you kept rice in the pressure cooker?

5 years back we emigrated to India – and here is the story.

July 13th – 2006 :
My sister got a phone call around 10.30 AM. We called her from Meenambakkam airport – and this is what we asked her : “Have you kept rice in the pressure cooker?” – she did not understand – why will we call from US to know if she has kept rice in the pressure cooker for the afternoon.
We were not supposed to come to India till October and it was not yet confirmed – and why was he asking this dumb question. Anyway I did not let her wonder too much – and broke the news that will be in landing in Coimbatore airport in another hour. So please add some more rice for both of us!
Good my mother did not take the call – she would have got a heartattack.
My sister’s and my mother’s BP shot up. After we had spoken, my sister suspected I was playing a prank. But she knew I will not play with sentiments like this – so it has to be true. And for the first time ( her claim ) she scolded me as “Naai” (dog ).
July 11th, 2006 :
We had to board Air India flight in Chicago’s O Hare Airport. We packed a little too many things – thought will pay ( no not bribe ) for the excess and get through. We had a little too many sentimental things and of course chocolates. The iron lady behind the counter was unforgiving. She hated Sangeeta for some reason and will not allow any slack to us. So we had to take off all the chocolates and bring it to precisely within the range. Ideally we should have got embarrased with so many people watching us take things out and giving it away to a lady who had come to see someone off ( her lucky day ) – but we were so excited about getting back to India – and the very thought that we were going to shock everyone..kept us in high spirits.
July 2, 2006 :

Witnessed Formula 1 at Indianapolis – one of my lifetime dreams to watch Formula 1 Live. Schumi won – but what a bore. Watching it on TV was much better. Some dreams should always remain dreams – should never meet them.
It was hot sweaty, everything was expensive, nothing good to eat. Bought 2 Ferrari caps and Ferrari 2005 replica adding to the weight of our suitcases ! This was our last long drive in US. Will surely miss those gas stations, slurpies, starbucks, cruise control…

June 2006 :

Shipped off 10 boxes of stuff we had accumulated. Then put ads in craiglist etc to sell off our cars, router, futon, table..
A cousin’s family was planning to visit Chicago in end July – and we had to discourage them without letting out the big secret. Having a secret was too much of stress – especially when the D day was just a couple of weeks away- we had to watch what we speak to home and friends.
May 2006 :

Applied for transfer to India – and finally got it approved after a few twists and turns. Got off work early that day and went to Devon avenue to book tickets to India. Picked Air India as they let people carry a little excess weight – someone knowledgable had once advised me. 2 one way tickets – and they were quite expensive.
Sangeeta was in Cleveland that time – got into the car, kept the tickets on the passenger seat and called Sangeeta to tell that I have got the tickets. It was an amazing feeling.
So that was what happened 5 years back. The story had some more events – none of our suitcases arrived with us, flight got delayed, missed the connecting flight, they put us on a flight to Hyderabad (??) and finally landed in Chennai. There Sangeeta & I lost each other in Meenambakkam airport – and we had no cell phones to find each other.
And since we had to give away all the chocolates while checking in, I bought some in a shop inside OHare, and had kept it under the foot, but forgot while changing planes. So we landed without a single chocolate on our hand. Till date my sister, my nephew and Sangeeta’s brother have not forgiven us for this oversight on our part.

Eat Pray Love

I picked this book because the cover had Julia Roberts saying – “this is an amazing book and I gifted this to all my girl friends”. Before you start passing a judgement let me just say – I agree. It is not a smart way to pick a book.

But – I did and ended up reading this one. and I recommend it wholeheartedly to both boys and girls.

This lady, Liz 34 years of age, goes through a pretty messy divorce. She is an accomplished writer/journalist living in New York – like one of the New York movies ( wait they did make a movie out of this – with Julia Roberts ). Has an affair that does not go well either.

So she takes off on a vacation for a year – split in 3 parts equally – Italy, India and Indonesia ( Bali actually ).

In Italy she joins a class to learn Italian. And she hunts for great food. I was hungry all the time while I was reading this part of the book – every page will have some dish or the other that she relished to the core. That is all she does – day in and day out and puts a lot of weight.

Then she moves to India – to an ashram near Mumbai. She was to spend 6 weeks and then go around India – but she ends up staying the full 4 months and never leaves this place. There are some hilarious bits here – how she does meditation and how her mind keeps getting in the way. If you are a beginner in meditation you should read this part – you are not alone.

Then something magical happens during her stay. She experiences ecstasy – the divine one. Till date I have only heard of this – but she explains it beautifully. She gets over her messy divorce finally – and is at peace with herself.

Then the story moves to Bali – where she had a deal with a renowned medicine man who had said during one of her earlier visits ( she is a journalist – and keeps travelling to interesting places – and during one of her trips she had met him ) – she can come and live with him to understand things better.

However the medicine man does not remember – but accepts her and she learns interesting things. She finds a place to stay and from here it is like a fiction. She is to find the balance in life in Bali – between the pleasure ( Italy ) and divine stuff ( India ). She gets lot of insights into the medicine man – he has mastered various types of meditation and can visit Heaven and Hell apparently.

It was interesting reading on Bali culture – Bali babies never touch the ground for the first 6 months of their life – as they are still Gods. After 6 months there is a ceremony to convert them to humans. Also they have only 4  names – The firstborn is “Wokalayan” (or Yan, for short), second is “Made,” third is “Nyoman” or Komang (Man or Mang for short), and fourth is “Ketut” (often elided to Tut). [got this from wikipedia] The fifth kid on wards the names are repeated. So if someone tells their name you can easily place them where they are in the family.

The books ends well – she falls in love with a 55 year old divorced Brazilian and ends on a high note. I read that her second part of this book ( which I am not going to read – as 2nd part always suck ) is about this second phase of her relationship.


So that is it – got a nice mix of spiritual and meta physical, 2 interesting cultures ( Italy and Bali ) – all written very fluently and in an entertaining manner – good TP.


and for me – I have moved on to metaphysical stuff – I am conversing with God now for the third time – perhaps will write about it next. 







The Pixar Touch

The above video is from 1967 Disney’s Jungle Book – and this is the best part of this movie in my opinion – smooth animation, great synchronization wtih music and great drama. While watching the movie it does not feel it is a cartoon – what an achievement Disney!

This post is however about the story of Pixar. The founders have a dream – to create a full length animated movie – not hand drawn like Disney’s but animated on a Computer. The founders were all along inspired / coached / educated by Disney’s philosophy on how to make an animated movie with emotion and a story. Pixar wouldnt  be Pixar without Disney.

The technology, software, methodology – none existed when they started. This core team of Pixar – which came into existence as part of George Lucas’s Studio and later got sold to Steve Jobs later – were involved in developing some of these methodologies – Z Buffer, Ray Tracing, Shadow on Shadow, Particle animation – Photoshop was originally developed at Pixar and then sold to Adobe.

The second half of the book devotes a chapter each for each of the Pixar’s hits – right till Ratatouille.  The story behind how the team was formed, how the idea originated, the legal troubles they fought – you will get tremendous respect for each of these movies.

If you are a fan of animation and Pixar ( /Steve Jobs ) you would love this book. Here are some interesting stories :

* It took almost 2 years of coercing to make Disney approve Toy Story. And mid way they almost scraped it  thinking it was not good

* Finding Nemo was laughed at by Eisner ( Disney’s horrible CEO ) – and when it is released Finding Nemo eclipses The Lion King in BO collection ( till then held the all time record for biggest BO collection )

* For Monster’s Inc – Pixar gets sued for copyright violation of the theme – Monster hiding under a closet. Apparently the brave girl, the hairy hero and one eyed side kick were part of a poem – and inadvertently Pixar’s story writers got influenced / inspired ( their defense ). They settled out of court for an undisclosed sum

* Dreamworks was started by a guy who was pissed off by Eisner. He wanted to hurt Disney – so he stole the 2nd movie idea – Bugs Life from Pixar’s director over coffee – and made a clone called – AntZ – similar theme, story line – and released it before Bugs Life. After that Pixar became very closed to outsiders.

* Cars is the worst movie to come out of Pixar – though technically it had many advancements like Ray Tracing in it. Each frame took some 20 hours to render. That is 24 frames per second, and movie is more than an hour. But made hell lot of money for Disney

* There is a very intriguing movie called Princess Mononke that I watched last month – the director is apparently a respected Japanese Animator – Miyazaki – he visits Pixar HQ. They pitch the idea of Incredibles to him and he gives some wise crack I cant recollect now. One of the directors have a wall full of Miyazaki’s characters.

* Pixar went IPO 10 days after the release of Toy Story – Steve Job’s idea – so they had the movie drive their opening day numbers.

Incidentally – my review of Incredibles – written way back in 2004 was the first post of my blog. I for one love Computer Animation and I watch all cartoon movies. If you read this book you will get the answer to the following question – which keeps coming to me whenever I watch a Pixar movie.

How in the LIVING HELL can Pixar manage to make hit after hit after hit.

Here is the life story of a speck

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